while crying inside..

for the world i put on a smile but am weeping inside
memories hurt me deeply and I have so often cried
I want to be so brave and push   my thoughts away
But they keep on coming back  towards the end of day

I don't want the world to weep simply because I cry
So sometimes I pretend to be  happy or at least I try
I want to suffer quietly while i'm learning to heal
but don't know if this is right or seeing things as real

I know someday it'll  pass and  I will become strong
nights will no longer scare me and words wont fall out wrong
Until then I will keep on running to my quiet place
So peace can hold my memories in a better space.