Tomorrow is really Father's Day
Tomorrow is really father's day; last week i was ahead
So I am writing down again, dear dad, everything I said
How i wish I had known you and you hadn't run away
I wish I had someone to hug and wish happy father's day
But as you can see I do not and write again with tears
For it hasn't become any easier despite the passing years
I still wish you had been around and didn't have to go
Would have been nice to say I had a dad who really loved me so
All the things the kids had said to me while I was growing up
Now Come down in all these tears, that splash my coffee cup
It was terrible the names i endured for not knowing you my dad
but worse then all the words they said was the dad I never had.
I don't know which would be worse, never knowing your dad or knowing mine and being sexually abused by him. I used to pray that my mother would leave my dad and take us 3 kids but she never did. They did get divorced when I was in my 30's and I cried for the ending of a chapter of my life and also for the fairy tale family that I always wanted and never got.
ReplyDeleteFather's Day and Mother's Day are both hard days for me. Sending your (((Hugs))) to get through tomorrow.