These feelings inside

I won't put into writing: all these feelings  inside;
No matter how much they're wanting outside
They're mine for the day, and with them I'll deal:
This day triggers memories, I am needing to heal

What can I say; I am so fragile and so weak
Things from the past make me tempted to speak
But I will not cry out and call back those fears
That have  held me a captive for so many years.

I cannot  deny it or pretend its not real:
The history behind all the things that I feel;
But I'll  try to keep smiling despite all the pain
For God can transform these scars that remain.





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