The effects of trauma

Last night I thought of running: putting it all behind
The memories were so haunting: they tormented my mind
Fear was all around me: I was chained to  yesterday
It kept my  feelings captive and chased my hopes away

Terrifying were those moments:  the past took over today
Trauma played back the memories: they wouldn't go away
All seemed to be  hopeless: obstacles were in the way
This really wasn't my present: but, rather, my yesterday

I began to ponder this mystery : happening inside of me
How hurt is continuing to influence everything I see
Everything's not as it seems or is it always how I feel
I must accept that this trauma puts a twist on what is real.