I kept it all silent year after year...

Did you ever know how much I cried
And were you aware of how hard I tried
To keep my sanity  in such a  place
Where abusive words were mixed with grace

The alleluias, they  would always resound
From every one of us around and around
Yet away from the churches and  the pews
We were badly wounded and so abused...

I kept it all silent year after year
Because of the teachings I used to hear
Suffering and sainthood were such a pair
To speak of a heartache : I wouldn't dare!!

Now I'm a grownup and I'm finally all free
From the chains the old religion had imposed  on me
Making my healing a more certain thing
Erasing old  memories and removing the sting..