I tried to avoid it.....

See me, this being: so broken and bruised
Feeling dejected and feeling quite used
Nobody had seen it and nobody knows
All of this heartbreak: for it never shows

I tried to avoid it: this breaking apart
I carried my secrets inside of my heart
Leaving me victimized: unable to talk
The trauma inside me hindered my walk.

I thought I could handle it:  keep it inside
Spilling out secrets: Too much for my pride
So I walked with a grimace and carried my scar
Such ways  of proceeding didn't carry me far.

So now I'm in counseling and seeking some aide
Too many heartaches have made me afraid
People who've known me haven't known me at all
For These secrets I've carried ever since I was small....